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Changing
of the Guard
by Hardy
Haberman
Reproduction
is permitted by non-profit and not-for-profit SM groups
for educational purposes with acknowledgements given to
SAADE and Hardy Haberman. Used by permission of
Hardy Haberman. © Hardy Haberman
You
are just turning 20, and though you have a good job
working in the same factory your father did, you can't
stay. Oh the work was OK, and the pay was darn good, but
there are some things that just have to be done. You
know that there's a war and you are going to be part of
it. That's just the way things are.
Boot
camp. Some of your friends call this place hell, and in
some ways they're right, but there is an order here that
is different than anything you've ever known. It's
damned hard work, and at the end of every day you just
don't think you're gonna live 'til sunrise, but you do.
And you learn to like it. A life with other men. A life
of structure and rules. No guessing. As long as you
follow the rules, and trust your commanding officers,
you not only survive, you thrive.
The
war. Real hell. Blood. Killing. Cold nights and mud
encrusted days. It seems you are never dry. You're
either covered in sweat, rain, mud or grease, and those
nights in boot camp on that rickety cot seem like
heaven. You don't sleep at all. You lose so many friends
you stop counting, and you just get numb. There are
breaks though. A few days in some foreign town where you
are treated like a hero. People here love your uniform,
and you do too.
Home
again. After all the emotional welcomes and the
congratulations, you find yourself with part of you
missing. Did you leave it somewhere
"over-there" or is it just so deep inside you
can't reach it. You go back to the job you left, but
only stay a few months. You just don't like the
restrictions, and you miss your friends and you miss
something else, the company of other men.
Searching.
You try to find the others like yourself. Those guys who
came back changed. Not from the war. Everyone was
changed by that. You miss the whole structure, the order
of it all. You buy a military surplus motorcycle, and
take off on the road. You are looking for those others
you know are there.
Found.
It only takes a few days before you meet up with another
guy on a surplus bike just like you. He could be your
twin brother if you didn't know better. Something about
him strikes a resonate tone in your soul, and that
missing part of you begins to shake it's way loose from
the depths of your being. He's got an old leather
jacket, and a hat that looks almost military like. He
tells you about a group of other guys like him that ride
together. They're not a gang, but they have a few laughs
with each other. Once you meet them, you know this is
where you belong. They are mostly vets, like you. They
still retain some of the military protocol, even though
they don't have formal ranks. Some of them dress more
like officers, broad brimmed caps and chain for braid.
Others act more like grunts, walking behind, eyes down,
speaking when spoken to by an officer. This is where you
belong.
So
what does this story have to do with the Leather
community. It's part of our heritage. Hundreds of
returning GI's found themselves missing something they
found in the service. The order, the discipline and the
constant testing of their endurance and strength. Back
home, some of them ended up in the new phenomenon of the
motorcycle gang. A pseudo-military environment where
order was preserved through rank and experience.
Soon,
Hollywood picked up on this powerful imagery and with
the help of stars like Marlon Brando and James Dean the
male icons became firmly entrenched in the collective
psyche of America. Men, wanting the company of other
ultra-masculine men sought the biker image as well as
the men themselves. Many of these guys played rough.
Having learned the intricacies of discipline in their
boot camp days, they now incorporated these kinks into
their sexual activities. Many were having sex with other
men, something that would have been unthinkable in the
50's. Doing it rough made this "pansy"
activity seem more masculine and acceptable.
By
the 1960's the gay leather community had emerged as a
way of life and love, and after Stonewall it began
emerging from the shadows.
Now
before anyone gets the wrong idea, I am not old enough
to have served in W.W.II. Many people consider me to be
Old Guard leather, but in relative terms I'm somewhere
in between. I was lucky enough to experience some of the
legendary leather bars like the Gold Coast in Chicago,
the Anvil in NYC, and in Dallas, the Sundance Kids.
I
was not steeped in the traditions of "old
leather" but I was mentored by a few people who
were. What they created was a community of like-minded
people who were intent on living and loving outside the
societal boundaries. Did this mean they were anarchists?
Far from it. They developed a true subculture with
rules, traditions, rituals, and hierarchy of it's own.
It is that early subculture that we are building on
today.
When
Larry Townsend wrote the Leatherman's Handbook in the
early 1970's he was attempting to not only create a
how-to guide for people interested in leathersex, but to
document and preserve some of the traditions and
knowledge that had been passed on to him. The success of
his book, now in it's second or third incarnation is
testament to what his readers wanted. A book describing
how to swing a flogger or handle a whip would be of only
passing interest. He wrote more about the
"who" and "why" than the
"how-to", because readers wanted to know more
than technique. It is that information beyond the
technique that is the real legacy of the Old Guard. Even
the idea of "safe sane and consensual" sprung
from the minds of Leatherfolk many would consider
old-timers.
So
what good does all this do someone who is new to the
leather/fetish/BDSM scene? It gives them roots. Having a
cultural history can serve as a firm foundation for
growth, experimentation and new ideas. One thing is
constant in the leather community, change. Leatherfolk
are rarely content to trod over well worn paths.
Exploring is a big part of what the scene is all about.
So with that in mind, I will try to answer a few
questions I receive on a regular basis from newer people
in the leather scene. These are not the definitive
historical answers, merely what I have learned. For a
more precise history of the Leather community, I suggest
checking out the reading list at the end of this
article.
Badges,
Symbols and Rank.
That
guy I saw in the leather bar with the club vest and all
those patches and pins. Where did he buy all those neat
pins, and why are some of them upside down?
Club
colors (logos) originated with the motorcycle clubs, the
origin of many present day leather clubs. These colorful
embroidered patches are signs of club affiliation.
Tribal symbols for anyone familiar with the club or it's
orientation. My first colors were sewn to a denim vest.
This
was worn over my leather motorcycle jacket, almost like
armor. If you see early photos of infamous motorcycle
clubs like the Hells Angels, you can see the same style
vests over bike jackets in cold weather, and worn alone
when it was too hot.
Within
the leather community, the motorcycle clubs, usually
indicated by the initials MC after the club name, were
gradually replaced with LC and LLC. Leather Clubs and
Leather/Levi Clubs offered much of the same camaraderie
as the Motorcycle clubs without the necessity for a
bike.
When
members joined a motorcycle club, they used to have to
do a certain amount of time as a "pledge",
much like a fraternity pledge. During that time, they
were give special pledge colors, indicating their
position.
As
in fraternities, the pledges are often asked to perform
a certain amount of service work and or servitude to the
full members. My pledge time was spent tending bar at
club functions, and cooking several hundred plates of
scrambled eggs at club "runs". This pledge
service was one way a member earned their rank as a full
member of the club. This was true in BDSM play as well.
Pledges often bottomed to full members of the club to
learn the ropes, and have fun!
The
pins, known as friendship pins, started as tokens of
affection and affiliation between clubs. A member of one
club would become friends with a member of another and
"pin" them. In Texas, as well as a few other
states, this pinning was done in a semi-public place,
usually a bar. The member giving the pin, would unbutton
the receivers fly and after a suitable grope or in some
cases more, would attach the pin to the flap of the
jeans fly. The pin would be in an upside down position
and would remain that way even when transferred to the
members vest. It could be turned over by the giver only
after a play session or sexual encounter with the
receiver. Today, with the importance of safe sex, most
friendship pins are given without the sexual caveat,
however many people do adhere to the inverted pin until
the two friends have a BDSM play session together.
Pins
are also used as souvenirs of special community events.
These "run pins" started with old style
"campaign button" pins. Today, most are
enameled or cloisonne. They, too, are badges of rank.
Run pins show the history of the wearer, and when they
are pins from prestigious invitation only events they
hint at his or her standing in the community.
Most
people know the left and right symbolism of left for Top
and right for bottom, but I am still asked about
armbands and shoulder chains. Armbands might be a
fashion statement for some, but in most cases they are a
pretty good indication the person wearing them is into
leather. A band on the left is a Top, Dom, Master or
Daddy and the right is a bottom, sub, slave or boy.
Armbands on both arms indicate either a switch, (a new
leather concept) or someone who is clueless.
Chains
hanging from the shoulder epaulets of a motorcycle
jacket could either be because they are pretty and
jingle, or they could mean that the person wearing them
is into heavy bondage and SM or even an official in a
motorcycle club.
Today,
many people call themselves Masters. They use the title
as an indication of their preference and not as a rank.
In the past, a Master became a Master only when someone
else called them Master. Masters were experienced and
skilled in their "work" (what the Old Guard
used to call SM play). Most of the Old Guard Masters I
have known learned their skills as both bottom and later
Top. They were trained and mentored by other Masters or
sometimes by very experienced bottoms. The most
prevalent sign of a Master in the Old Guard was the
motorcycle cap. The broad brimmed leather caps resembled
officers caps in the Armed Service, and had much the
same meaning. Boys and bottoms wore baseball caps or
none at all. Slaves were shaved and went without any
head covering at all.
I
had just clipped the end of my cigar, and was rolling in
between my fingers. I like the feel of a fresh cigar,
the firm and slightly moist outer leaves snugly
restraining the tobacco inside. I like to moisten the
surface slightly with my tongue, just enough to put a
glisten on the rich brown surface.
I
had done just that when I heard a voice nearby.
"Sir," he spoke in third person, "this
boy would like permission ask a question, Sir?"
I turned to see a head of close cropped hair atop a
reverently bowed head. The boys hands were behind his
back and his posture was almost that of military
"parade rest". "Ask your question,
boy", I said with just enough authority to let him
know I appreciated his respectful demeanor. Sir,
this boy would like permission to light Sir's cigar,
Sir." I could no longer contain my smile.
"Permission granted", I said as I brought the
cigar to my lips. He raised his eyes only
far enough to maneuver his lighter below the tip of my
cigar. He snapped the lid off the Zippo and struck the
flint wheel. It lit on the first try, and I moved the
cigar just above the edge of the flame. Puffing slowly,
I watched the tip turn bright red, then as if he had
done this a thousand times before he pulled the lighter
away and snapped the lid shut. "Sir, this boy
thanks you for the privilege, Sir." With that
little exchange I knew that this was no ordinary bar
patron. This boy had been trained in the fine points of
protocol by someone from the Old Guard. In fact
this boy could have passed for military, and for all I
knew he was a G.I. So what went on during this
exchange of formal pleasantries? A ritual that spoke
volumes about both of us.
The
boy knew enough to recognize I was a Top. He also, I
came to find out, had a distinct fetish for cigars. He
also knew that if he wanted to get to know me better he
would have to show me that he was what I call a
"player". In other words, his dialogue and
ritual postures told me he was into the role play of
either "daddy/boy" Master/slave", or some
other formalized Top/bottom kind of scene. By
speaking in the third person, he let me know that he was
very conscious of his standing, and let me know just
what kind of position he would aspire to in any further
relationship. When he asked a question, it was always
bracketed with the formal "Sir", and phrased
in such a way that even asking a question was a
"permission" given by me. By my
responding to him with the shortest most concise reply I
was telling him that I appreciated his request and
respect and was willing to participate in at least some
portion of a Dominant/submissive scene with him. As it
turned out, what he wanted was to be my ashtray for the
evening. It was a duty he performed with the utmost
seriousness and care. In exchange for his diligence, I
gave him all my cigar ashes, and occasionally rewarded
him with a cloud of blue smoke. At the end of the
evening he put the carefully saved ashes to good use in
a private ritual of his own. What this was all
about was protocol. One of the most asked
questions I hear during BDSM workshops is about
protocol. Many people in the "New
Leather" scene are hungry for the structure that
the Old Guard developed in the established behaviors and
rituals of it's protocol. Now as I have said, I am
not really "Old Guard". I have only been
in the scene since the late seventies, so that makes me
a kind of "between guard", however I feel
qualified to relay a few of the rules and practices that
were common when I first came out into leather.
The
first point, is one that was starting to fade when I
stumbled into the scene. The practice of "earning
your leathers" was around in the seventies, but it
was far from the rigid rule I have heard about in the
60's. At that time, a leather vest was a sign that you
had been trained by someone who found your service
commendable enough to reward you with a gift. The
leather vest, and in many cases a leather jacket were
symbols of experience. Today, they are mostly symbols of
a preference for leather and/or a well healed bankroll.
I didn't earn my leather. I was never apprenticed to a
Master or involved in a Master/slave relationship. I did
earn my club colors. Colors were the back patches
representing the motorcycle club I belonged to. For
those, I did a lot of service work in the community and
spent a lot of nights tending bar at club events. The
best thing about that time was finding my mentors, two
men who gave me a good education in the basics of the
scene.
From
them I also learned that the basics of protocol are just
common sense and good manners. Remembering to address
Tops, Masters and Superiors as "Sir" or
"Madame" whenever necessary. Practicing a
little good old fashioned "chauvinism" in a
twisted way, and remembering that rank had it's
privilege. How did this work? Simply and
elegantly. A Daddy or Top out with his boy or boys was
treated with respect. The boys opened the door for
him, lit his cigarettes, fetched his drinks and stood
respectfully beside and slightly behind him throughout
the evening. Most Tops I knew preferred having their
boy's on their right side. If they were in collar, or
slaves, they were often on leashes, and still stood
behind, always keeping their head lower than the Master
at all times. Eyes were down unless ordered to look
elsewhere. Friends meeting a Top or Master in a bar,
always addressed the Top and never the boy or slave. In
some cases, the boy or slave was allowed to speak, but
always with permission, and most of the time in third
person. This was not a hard and fast rule though, high
protocol was used mostly in more formal occasions. It
would be rare to see a Top and his boy out at the
supermarket and interact with such rigid rules. Yet,
even during those "off duty" times, the level
of respect remained. As you might have noticed, I
never capitalize the words boy or slave. That's a more
recent part of the new leather scene, brought about
mostly by the pervasiveness of Email. When a boy signs
his name in an email letter it is always in lower case,
signifying his subservient position.
So
how do you tell if someone is on "High
Protocol" head space or not? Well, mainly by the
situation. In a bar on a busy night, it could go either
way. At a big leather event or a big party, it's easier.
Signs would be the behavior of the boy or slave. If they
are very "on", then it's a good bet it's a
"High Protocol" night. A leash is also a good
sign, as well as full leathers on the Top. High or full
leathers can be different things to different people. To
many it means vest, cap, chaps, harnesses, boots and
gloves. To some it can be the simple addition of a
flogger at the side in addition to a few articles of
leather, cap, vest boots. High leather is never shorts
and tennis shoes with a vest!
I
have never been a big stickler for rigid protocol,
though I do enjoy it once in a while. Few things are as
arousing to me as having my boy at my side, attentive
and ready to serve. But I also enjoy kicking back on the
sofa and just holding hands while watching TV. I
guess that puts me somewhere between Old Leather and Old
Couch Potato.
For those interested in more reading on the
leather culture and history, I suggest the following
books:
The
Leatherman's Handbook by Larry Townsend
Published by Carlyle Communications, Ltd. - NY, NY
Leatherfolk
edited by Mark Thompson
Published by Alyson Publications - Boston, MA
Urban
Aboriginals by Geoff Mains
Published by Gay Sunshine Press - San Francisco, CA
Ties
That Bind by Guy Baldwin, MS
Published by Deadalus Publishing - Los Angeles, CA
Reprinted
with permission from the archives of the SAADE Gazette.

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